I don't think anybody can understand the love one feels for a child until one is pregnant or a mother. There is an insane nature to love and protect them even before they are born. We also put up with a lot to just get our little ones into the world to hold. Each pregnancy of mine has been complicated and honestly down right uncomfortable! I wish I was lucky to have easy uneventful pregnancies but it seems I am destined to always have one complication. As it is I feel down right awful. My medicine is kicking my butt. You would think in all of that I would be ready to be done being actually pregnant. The truth is I am not ready. I am not ready to share Ari with the world yet. It may be selfish but I like just having him with me. I am over being uncomfortable, but I am not over being pregnant.
All that to say I have been working on something special for him. As previously mentioned my love for him has had to grow with time. Eli and Lilliana were planned and anticipated and so hoped for. Ari came as a suprise but a welcome one. It has taken a lot to adjust to the idea of another child. Would I change it, absolutely not! I now love him so much and maybe even more so than the other two because I know the joys of another child in the home. So I have been working on a special quilt for him. He gets a lot of used things from the other kids. I wanted him to have something special for just himself. Regardless of when he is born his due date will always make him my little patriotic baby. The Fourth of July is my favorite holiday too. As silly as going completely to my due date sounds I really want him to come on the 4th of July. So all that to say his quilt is patriotic. I just finished sewing it all together today. I am waiting on the back fabric to arrive and then I can begin quilting. As I am sewing it I have been dreaming and anticipating wrapping his tiny little body in it, knowing it will be an heirloom that can be passed on. He will know it was made in love for him.
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