Motherhood Week 2

I am so glad I took on this project. It has been wonderful for me and given me a lot of reflection. 

Weekend Mornings 

The kids love to sneak in on weekend mornings to see us. Before the babies they came to see Anthony and I. Now that the babies are here we are second rate. They try to be quiet, but I can hear them coming in my sleep. Their tiny feet come through the homeschool room and then our door creaks open. Usually they say something like "SHHHH they are sleeping" only really loud. By this point I know my sleep is over. I think any parent can relate. Then they crawl in bed and snuggle. It begins nice and calmly. 

Then of course they begin to get crazy. 

Then it is an all out circus. 

By this point we have to send them downstairs because they are two wound after a few laughs. Regardless, I look forward to our weekend morning snuggles and circus. 

Breastfeeding 

This is probably going to come as a shock, but I have a secret. I would use the word hate, but that is pretty strong. So instead I LOATHE breastfeeding. I know ironic right. The truth is I have never ever really enjoyed it. It was just kind of the thing that I do. Some moms love it and I applaud them. I am not one of them. It takes time and yep I am selfish it always interrupts what I am doing. So the question probably could be asked why do I breastfeed my kids and all of them for over a year?  A lot of factors play into this. First, when I use to work at a daycare I could not stand the smell of formula. I pretty much made up my mind then I would nurse my babies. Second financially it makes the most sense! I mean really truly why would I not save the money. If I can cloth diaper I can surely nurse them. Thirdly, when I was pregnant with Eli I read an amazing book that put a huge perspective on it for me plus it gave me valuable knowledge. Breastfeeding really is best. This is not to shame anybody that does not. Nope, you do what is right for you. Even though I hate it  this is what is right for me. I will always be a huge advocate for breastfeeding but I still very much dislike it.

I debated documenting this journey with the twins, but in the end I knew I needed to. It has been a huge journey and the thing I was worried about most for having twins. The first month was so difficult with them. They were early and just had terrible latches. I literally would sit in this position with this huge pillow crying and it taking everything not to throw them off of me. Tandem nursing made my skin crawl. I couldn't stand to listen to one cry though. It all just would give me severe anxiety. Thankfully I stuck to it. Anthony helped so much and even on little sleep would help me through the night. We don't tandem as much anymore as they now wake up within 30 minutes of each other. That being said last night when they were both crying to eat I decided it was time to set up the big nursing pillow and document. We have spent hours and hours in this position so I am so glad I have this. It has also meant lots of Netflix watched, FB posts read, internet articles read, books read, research done, and photobooks begun and finished all from my phone. Technology is an amazing thing. I can also say officially 3 months exclusively breastfed as today. I am still growing this girls and that is an accomplishment even if I don't enjoy it all the time. They are getting fun and smiling and playing while they nurse, so that makes it a lot better.