When Nothing Goes Like I Planned It in My Head

I have this bad habit. I have had it as long as I can remember. I plan things in my head and expect them to go that way. When they don't I get very agitated and annoyed. It happens with so many things. It is one reason after I take a client's photos I have learned to wait until the next day to look at them. I have a vision going into my session and it never comes out that way. I am always hard on myself whine to my good friend. Who assures me they are just fine and tells me I  do this EVERY TIME! Which I do until I got smart and started looking after the fact. Then I have great photos in my mind.

Needless to say I have been dealing with that a lot lately. It came about right after I got home from delivering Ari. I grand plans to relax in my bed for a week. Somebody should have reminded me I have two other kids......I was obviously living in dream world. I also had envisioned I would be back to my photo taking and loving having my camera out. I would have so many of all three kids. That really should have been a joke. Seriously?!? It was a challenge going to the park last week let alone trying to take a picture while keeping an eye on two and swaying with a fussy baby in my arms. Like I said I have great ideas in my head!!! They just never happen. This weekend I had a few more.

Gone are my simple days of just getting breakfast for everybody and emptying the dishwasher. Ari is now more awake and joins me on the counter most of the time fussing through it. I also have two little ones at my legs crying to help or just whining for their glass of milk ahem...Lilliana.

I have ideas about getting meat out of the freezer for dinner...........yep through all the hustle and bustle I forget. So we end up going out for dinner. I even have the kids dressed nice and we make it home before 7:00 p.m. That is an accompolishment. Eli wanted to show off before we went.

Then some things do go right..............Like when I got Ari's blooming bath and thought what his first bath alone might be in it. He really enjoyed it. My back also enjoyed not having to bend over the tub.

.................or when I envisioned what Lilliana would look like if  I let her eat her applesauce on her own. She did not disappoint at all!!

She does so well with a fork and solid food. We are working on more liquid things now.

Another thing that has gone wrong in my head..........When I got my 50 mm lens I fell in love. Sadly I was not really in love with my personal pictures anymore. They seemed dark and just not what I was loving about them before. Monday I pulled out my 35 mm to get a shot of Ari wearing his first pocket diaper.

I fell in love all over again. To think I have not touched it since January and almost sold it!! Needless to say am I am loving shooting pictures again. It is such a wonderful lens for inside. Outside and newborns I will take my 50 mm though.

I feel like summer is almost over but for me is just beginning. I have so much energy and just want to do so much with the kids. Unfortunately that is not always happening as having 3 is a little more time consuming. It also has been sooo unbearably hot this year. So we have spent more time inside than normal. They painted the other day and decided fingers were more fun to use. It went pretty much as expected including Lilliana eating the paints!

Sunday was probably the all time low for how things were going to go in my head and how they went! First off I am only able to really do time consuming photos with Anthony around. I knew I wanted to get some more newborn shots of Ari before it was too late and he was 2 weeks. I also needed to take some for a friend for her cloth diaper site. So I worked on those. Surprisingly they turned out a lot like I had hoped.



Tiny peely newborn feet are just wonderful!



Then it all went downhill from there. I had wanted to take some of him outside. We also thought we would take the kids to Sleepy Hollow to run some energy off and play in the sand.

Ari would not settle well so his pictures were not that great. I forgot a lens that would have been perfect for this shot.

I did get a couple that are ok. The light was weird the grass brown and not my overall best work but it was experience and I enjoyed doing it.

All the while I was taking photos Eli was not behaving the best. Now it was not horrible but it could have been worse. It seemed nothing new since Ari has come Eli has figured out he can take advantage of us being busy!  It is rather frustrating and he has been a big handful! Lilliana also wet through her diaper. After looking everywhere and thinking I forgot the diaper bag we found a diaper! At this point you would think we would have head home and that would have been the best idea. Instead they went down to the beach to play. When I was done I joined them where they were playing in the sand. They had a blast and were really enjoying it. Anthony and I were enjoying the clouds and talking.

When it was time to go we agreed that Eli would push the dump truck back. Well Lilliana grabbed it and took off. He decided to be mean and take it and push her. So Anthony took the truck and then the problems started. He was hitting and kicking and took off all the way across the park towards the parking lot. It is a hike for a little boy. Needless to say I was left with a basket Ari and Lilliana and the truck. Thankfully Lilliana was more than willing to push the truck. It was a trek.

So after all that Eli has been in a bit of trouble and we have started a sticker chart. I never envisioned using stickers to train my kid. Yes, we spank and that is obviously not working. Taking priviledges away is not working. Taking toys is not working. Right now what seems to be working is a sticker chart in hopes of getting ice cream when it is filled! We had a good day yesterday and part of Monday. Today was not the easiest, but we are making steps. It has been trying. I understand he just wants attention on top of the fact he is in that stage where he is testing and learning what he can get away with. Through it all I am learning I need to stop having expectations and just let things happen. It is hard to be frustrated too long as I know it will get better and seeing these adorable faces makes me realize how much they are my heart and how much I LOVE them!

Eli won't let me take very many photos as of late and Lilliana is so fast most have turned out blurry lately! Ari on the other hand is a perfect model!

The other things that have been funny have been Eli and what he has said. Through that it makes me less frustrated and annoyed with him.

~After dinner last night he went to the bathroom and said, "hey guys watch this, I am going to pee standing up." It is not appropriate but as a mom it was hilarious to hear.

~Tonight Anthony and the kids were jumping like frogs and Eli said, "I am popping like a frog."

He is my silly boy. He is a handful at times but I have to keep remembering this soon shall pass. We are working on it and the best things in life take work!