What a Day

Anthony came home yesterday and the first words out of his mouth were, "Wow you have dropped." I am not sure if it really is the case because I just can't tell. I can breath better and have no more feet in my ribs so I guess its possible. I just hate to get my hopes up before it really does happen. Then this morning I woke up in a panic about getting stuff done. I have none of the baby things brought downstairs. I need to wash some stuff and just get organized and none of it is done. I also have no bags packed to go and I feel like my house is needing cleaned top to bottom. I had a goal to get all of this done today. HA! Somebody forgot to remind me I have an almost 2 year old. I also had to get to Meijer to get my prescription filled since it was out and we are getting a ton of snow!!

So went to Meijer got my prescription and some last minute items I know I needed to pack my bag. I was feeling good that I made it that far. I get home and I am exhausted no surprise so I get lunch and Eli down ofr a nap. What do you know he decides today NOT to take a nap. He was falling asleep on the way home but now does not want to so the battles begin. By this point I am in tears almost. I am exhausted. I have this crazy urge to get things done and I wanted to sleep then get up while he took a nap to do some of this. Needless to say I was not a happy mom.

Finally he sleeps and I sleep and then its time to get up and fix dinner so none of the things I felt I "needed" to get done got done!!! All of this and I can't get a hold of Anthony to figure out when he will be home or if he is coming home but staying the night in Detroit. Poor Anthony got a phone call of tears and frustration. Needless to say he came home and had me write my list of stuff I want done and has promised to help tomorrow. He even helped tonight with some of it. My house is cleaned up its just weird random things I want done. Because of all the snow he has tomorrow off but that means Friday he won't be there for the maternity pictures. Oh well!! I can't have everything and I am ok with that.

Tonight we spent a lot of time with Eli. Sometimes I feel like a terrible mom because I have no patience for him lately and I just can't give him the attention I use to so I made sure we spent some fun time together. He was being silly and even wanted me to get the camera out to take pictures which never happens. Then when I was taking them he would tell me NOOOO. It was cute. I love him and I really hope I get my energy back after this baby. All that to say I will do my birth topic tomorrow or sometime this week. Tonight I just needed to vent. I am very thankful for my family and wonderful husband. My wonderful grandma reminded me today that God gave me the ability to have children and one day I will be begging for the time I had even when they are naughty. It really brought things into perspective. She is so right and Eli is such a blessing. It is not his fault I don't feel the greatest and I know there are a lot of new things so I need to have some patience with him! As hard as it may be it is what is best for him. If you have read this far sorry for the vent but sometimes I need to just get it out there! You can enjoy looking at my cute boy though:) He found a hat in his drawer that fit him when he was six months old and insisted on wearing it tonight while playing around. It is a Boise State One. It did not fit and he looked like a little Jewish boy but it was so cute and made me realize how much I do love him!!